Monday, May 09, 2005
wa[i]ting
It seems like life is all about waiting.
Waiting for ORD. Waiting to enter university. Waiting for friends. Waiting for love. Waiting to be heard. Waiting to be wanted. Waiting to live the rest of your life. Waiting for people to make the first move. Waiting for enemies to make the wrong move. Waiting for friends to lend a helping hand. Waiting for presents and words of encouragement.
And more important things. Waiting to serve others. Waiting to do the best I can. Waiting to develop to my fullest potential. Waiting for the second Coming. Waiting to die, and live again.
Death seem to be the more visible these few days.
I almost fell to my death while walking out of HCJC at 10pm where there was no lights.
Our former president died of old age.
Nat's friend, suicide.
Sher's relative, sickness [I think?].
It is true. Life is fragile. More fragile than it may seem. Which is why it is all the more important where we place our trust and hope. We are weak. Only Jesus is strong. We cannot depend on ourselves, but we can depend on Him. He is our anchor and our strength. He is the source of our Power. The message of the Cross is the POWER of GOD [1 Corinthians 1:18]. He is our only hope and salvation. By grace we are given eternal life. When we have faith in that, the fragile nature of life is no longer an issue. It is not meant to be eternal anyway. But rest your hopes in the Lord, and you will be given eternity to spend by His side.
Nat, rest assured, your friend is in Heaven. Suicide is wrong, but it is not unforgivable. Salvation is by grace through faith in Jesus Christ, not by works [Ephesians 2:8]. HE does not grant temporary eternal life, but permernant eternal life. One sin of suicide will not undo what Jesus did at the Cross. Jesus bore ALL sins, including suicide.
I do admit, I am afraid of dying. At the same time I look forward to spending eternity in Heaven. It is quite conflicting, I'm afraid. I believe it is not my time yet. There is still more Work to be done. Opus Dei is not finished in me.
Had a bad medical review today. I promise [complete with the pinky-swear thingy o_O] that I will take better care of myself.
At the same time I pray for myself and all of my friends, that our healths be taken care of by the Lord our God. Watch over us, Father. Restore and rejuvenate us; heal and protect us; mold and use us; bless and keep us. I pray by faith that Your Grace be with us always.
Amen.
{/10:24 PM}
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