Friday, June 03, 2005
go[o]dbye
Leaving for Malaysia in the afternoon.
I guess I thought wrong.
When I first agreed to join HCV for their concert and performance tour in Malaysia upon invitation by Miss Lim, I thought the singing itself will be enough to sustain me. But I realise now that the singing is not enough. Not nearly good enough.
There was not much feeling in me for the concert. I wasn't nervous at all. I didn't have any jitters before going on stage. It was so totally unlike how I felt for Cantabile last year. I didn't feel like taking any photos with any of them. What for? I'm merely a guest singer, someone you probably won't ever see or hear from again after this whole episode is over.
I'm not eagerly anticipating this trip at all. In fact I'm sort of dreading it.
It's obvious what is missing from all these.
Make new friends, you say? For Chinyaw, maybe. He doesn't seem to have too much of a trouble with that. But it's just not me. How many times have I mentioned, that making friends is not easy for me. It's my fault, not others. Mine. I have different definations of friends from others.
What's my defination of a friend, you ask?
THIS is friendship.
One of many letters from dear Wenlin, back from quite a long time ago. Hope you don't mind me putting this up! Actual content of the letter has been blurred to retain privacy =]
I'll be back tuesday evening. Back to work wednesday afternoon.
Until then...
...
Goodbye.
{/9:05 AM}
me