Monday, June 13, 2005
nowhere to hide
Have I ever mentioned about this teaching that JieHui taught me, a very long time ago?
He told me, that trying to hide things from God, or even, hiding from God yourself, is just like playing hide and seek in a house made entirely out of transparent glass. Glass doors, glass floors, glass ceiling, glass walls, glass everything.
I dreamed that last night. Playing hide and seek in a glass house. Hiding. Running. Hiding again. Nowhere to hide.
In 6 days' time I will have been a Christian for 1 year already. And what have I got to show for it?
I have been running. Running and hiding.
Oh, how I like to point out the specks in other people's eyes, while ignoring the plank in my own.
I have not been praying enough. I have not been diligent in my quiet time. I even have not been going for service regularly. After almost 1 year, what do I have for show in terms of my spiritual growth? Nothing.
I miss JieHui. I really do. I wish he can be my shepherd again.
Oh, how foolish I have been.
Game over, chyekeong.
{/1:32 PM}
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