Monday, June 05, 2006
Hmm.
I can't seem to maintain more than 1 close relationship at any one time.
And by close I mean the kind where you really get to know the other person.
It seems that throughout the years, friends I have that I consider really close [note: the other party may not feel the same way] have come and gone, never overlapping, never more than 1.
Secondary 1 and 2 was yf. 3 and 4 there wasn't really anyone, and that happened to be one of the down-est period of my life [diagnosed with diabetes, missed competition, bad-getting-worst results, etc.]. Then there was Enid for maybe the first 6 months of my JC life. Then Aud, lasting another approximately 6 months or so. Then came Ash, and that was on-and-off for perhaps a year or so. And now I have Feli =)
It's strange. Somehow it's like I have just enough energy to maintain one relationship at one time.
And do you know what's the recurring theme among most of them? It is that the friendships developed due to physical proximity, and faded because of physical proximity as well. yf and I were classmates for 2 years. After that he went tower block while I went toilet block, lol. Enid was in my OG, then she went to Australia. Aud was hs' little sister who always tagged along with us, then she stopped tagging along as much. Ash was my junior in choir, then I left choir for A levels.
Notice who is the special one? Feli! I only started getting to know her after I left choir. Funny how that happened; don't ask me how, I have no idea either. What's even more unbelievable is that we are still good friends [I hope!] now, even though we're no longer in NJ, she's not in the alumni choir [a status I hope to change soon!], and we don't see each other much except for I think 4 or 5 dates in the past [no more now that her bf objects =(].
I think all my friends are special because I have so few of them. I really enjoy the getting-to-know-you-a-lot process, and I am always willing and eager for my friends to know more about me. Sharing personal details, thoughts, laughs and sorrows; that's what appeals to me, and, I'm sure, to lots of other people as well.
Why is it that I always seem to have only time for one?
There are so many other people around me that I would really like to know more and deeper, but for each of them there always seem to be some obstacle blocking the way.
So, if you are my friend [both old and new!], and you're reading this, please leave me a tag. Or e-mail me [chyekeong@gmail.com]. Or say hi to me on MSN [iamck_@hotmail.com]. Or call / SMS me [ask if you don't have my number].
I know, I know, it's extremely lazy of me to sit on my ass here expecting people to contact me, instead of going around contacting everyone. Bleah.
Oh yea. Happy birthday to these people I know!
YuehHsin - 6 June
Timmo - 7 June
De Wei - 7 June?
Mar - 5 June
/gives virtual present.
Cheapo, I know. =p
{/4:04 PM}
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