Thursday, November 09, 2006
50 days to ORD.
Make that ROD, as I don't think I'll be liable for anymore National Service.
As the day approaches, my workload in the office gets considerably less, and so it becomes inevitable that I should be spending much of my time trying to figure out just what the hell I have achieved in this (almost) 2 years of National Service.
One often hear guys complaining about serving NS. It's unavoidable; in fact it can be considered something that bonds guys of this age group together, the let's-get-together-and-bash-NS mentality. All the whining aside, though, I didn't really enjoy my NS times, but neither do I detest it much. Quite ambivalent, I would say. I haven't made any great friends here, less one or two (maybe three). I'm getting quite used to that, by the way; I know for a fact that most of the people in my office dislike me or think I have attitude problem, regulars and NSFs included. It used to bother me, and I used to wonder what exactly is the problem with me. Then I realised that I was not the problem: everyone else is.
Can you blame me? The cliche is only cliche because it's true: guys in NS have limited mental capacity, and their thoughts never stray far from the following few topics: Soccer, cars, gambling, gaming, girls, sex. There are exceptions, of course; they are the ones I'm friends with.
The regulars themselves are problematic. I think it is common perception among NSFs that most regulars, for the lack of a more elegant word, sucks, at their job. All the top people aside, the rest are, simply put, unqualified. Of course, the environment is such that it doesn't pay to disagree with your bosses, so most of us end up exasperated.
NS aside, though, my last 2 years have been quite uneventful and, to tell the truth, wasted. I lost a really good friend, one that I thought I would be friends with for a long long time. Drifted away pretty much completely with another, and also, to a lesser extent, other used-to-be close friends and classmates. I haven't made any new friends besides the occasional choir junior. I haven't learnt any new skills. My spiritual life is in a mess. Everything just seems to be standing still.
Sigh. This has turned out to be quite a saddening post, hasn't it.
OK, happy stuff.
Let's see...
I don't have work tomorrow.
Weekend coming!
My new books should be arriving soon.
My scores and CD should also be arriving soon.
Christmas is soon. Presents!
Sis is coming back soon!
Bye! =)
{/2:32 PM}
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